Day three of preschool. I am finding preschool drop-off to be the most difficult thing about this entire experience. I know in the classroom, they are very good at including Kiran and facilitating friendships with his peers. But *I* don’t know how to do that. When all the kids are running around and playing tag and doing whatever most preschoolers do….
I am thankful – I do not feel Kiran is aware of his differences. I don’t think his heart is breaking like mine is.
Even I feel so different. I was brave the first day of school at pick-up and introduced myself to the two moms who were there first. I haven’t introduced myself to anyone else yet. And already, yesterday, I felt so outside the conversations they were having – “Of course she doesn’t like the doctor – you only go to the doctor when you’re sick!”
Yeah. Our life is so different.
I know this is only our first not-even-full-week of preschool, but I just feel like I am failing at being the mom of a preschooler. I just have no idea how to navigate this new area of his life. I feel awkward all the time – I feel so outside.
I am hoping today helps. It’s their fall party at the end of the day, and his dad and I are both attending. Hopefully we will meet some other parents. And hopefully my entire goal with his costume this year – to normalize the wheelchair and make it something fun for his peers – will be met.
I knew this transition would be harder for me than for Kiran. He seems to be rocking it and loving it, and I am so thankful for that.