I feel like the conversation we just had with Kiran’s private speech therapist today mirrors the decisions I have had to make this week: Take a step back. Breathe. Ease into the goals you have set for yourself.
I have learned a lot about and am fairly good at advocating for Kiran, but evenso, I still have a tendency to listen to the experts and get pulled along a certain trajectory. This is mostly a good thing – I know I am not the expert at everything, and I am certainly not the smartest person in the room when it comes to certain things. There is a reason we go to medical doctors and professional therapists, after all.
Also, hindsight is 20/20.
In addition to all of this, I am learning firsthand about the problem of having too many cooks in the kitchen. I am also, as always, dealing with the stress of being the head chef.
You know how sometimes you just want to stomp up and down and scream “I don’t wanna!” Just me?
Anyway. We went down a path with Kiran for speech – actually, though the therapy is called speech therapy, I have learned what we are really working on is language right now with his goals – and I think it was far too complex a path for Kiran.
We assumed competency, and we gave it a go. I had a gut feeling we were skipping too many stepping stones, and I think his local speech therapists felt the same way. But also, everyone had an opinion which put us on what I believe might be a different path than the CDD speech therapist intended.
All of this to say, next week, when we follow up in Iowa City, we will be having a very frank conversation about where to go from here. How to most effectively take some steps back and some of the things we feel (and our local speech therapist feels) will help Kiran start to master these vocabulary words and develop language.
The bright spot? The speech therapist today did say she feels Kiran will eventually be able to master some of these vocabulary words and start communicating with us using language, at some level.
I feel he will get there, too. We just bit off more than we could chew, at this point. Live and learn. It’s a long road ahead …. you know the rest.