It is like I was just starting to understand basic algebra, and life threw me into an advanced calculus class.
I was starting to wrap my head around ways to find time and take part in self-care activities. I was starting to achieve some semblance of balance with school, work, Kiran, friends, and self. And I was working steadily toward an even better balance.
And now, this.
I am trying still. I have to try. But I’m overwhelmed and frustrated and tired. Already. I feel like the frustration and anxiety and stress builds like a physical pressure – builds and builds and builds – and I fear it will eventually spill out in unproductive ways. So I take walks and I read uplifting snippets of books and I check in with my people.
I am doing my best to find a new balance, because it won’t be the same as what I was building. But I have to keep reminding myself that it will also only be temporary.
This too shall pass.
I may not ever fully grasp advanced calculus but having taken the class, perhaps basic algebra will be a cinch.