You know how moms just…know things!? I don’t even mean me – not at all – I mean…MY mom knows things. I have never understood how she knows things, but if I don’t know something (unless it’s about cars or tools or mechanical-type stuff – my dad knows those things), I go to my mom.
I have always felt SO insecure about being a mom because I. Don’t. Know. Things. I don’t know how to get to the point where you DO know things. I don’t have the confidence.
Well, today, I realized I do know things. I know Kiran. I know him well. He woke up not feeling well. He didn’t have a fever, but he was just a bit stuffy, was coughing a little (at a non-feeding time), was struggling more with his oral eating, and was just TIRED. I assumed he got my cold. We opted to cancel our preschool meeting with his teacher and associates, because it’s not a good first impression to get everyone sick.
I questioned it a few times today. But then he continued being not quite right. We had to alter some things – he was struggling a lot more with his water, so I went back to half nectar thick, and he did a lot better with it – I assume mucus is the culprit. And we did a two nap day instead of a one nap day – and slowed down on dinner and went to bed early.
Basically, we had a sick day, even though I was questioning if I had made the right call, not really certain that he was sick.
And then I checked on him before my bedtime. And he was awake, so I got in to snuggle him. And I thought – He feels warm; I think he has a fever.
Guys. I know things.
Sure enough, fever of 100.8. Tylenol and snuggles given, alarms set to check on him a couple times before morning….
There is so much stuff I know that my mom doesn’t – or doesn’t know in as much depth as I do – Kiran has made sure of that. He has a lot of extra stuff to know. But I still have to say – it makes me feel good that I know some of this “regular” mom stuff too.
I just have to learn to trust it.