My realization this morning: In less than two short weeks, my precious Kiran will be six months old! I cannot believe I have had the privilege of being his momma for almost half a year. As anyone reading this knows, it has been quite the eventful life – and a big change for his daddy and me.
I have been struggling lately, feeling bogged down by the daily aspects of his care. It requires a lot, and I am only one person. Some days I feel like all I do is what is necessary to keep him alive. I forget to slow down and enjoy the snuggles, the smiles, the laughs. I forget to take him outside and walk around the park next door. I forget to soak it all in – to breathe in his scent, to enjoy the feeling of his weight in my arms.
It has always been my desire to live a present, mindful life. I veer off the path frequently and have to quiet my mind and turn my feet back in the right direction. That is what I am attempting to do today. Forgive myself for where I’ve been and make a point to get back to where I desire to be.